I am still here and I need some HELP

[JMC]

So, unfortunately it looks like I am going to be one of those divorces that are going to stick.

Sorry you are in pain. I can empathize with your post, as I too would like to have my marriage restored. However, I have come to learn of couples getting back together many years after the divorce. I would suggest that sending texts good night is a good start. It seems to me that having an ex with whom you can be civil is a positive, versus the negative energy it takes to engage in a hostile relationship. I am by no means an expert, but I feel that you and I must both be patient and continue to take care of ourselves and treat others as we would like to be treated. That is what I keep telling myself anyway. I hope things get better for you.