The adventure continues- part 4

[AFWAW]

Puppy,
I am trying to think about the future now without my wife. I am trying so hard. That's why I think this is a good option. I think I experienced every emotion possible today except happiness. I did laugh at the job annoucement and tip on how to fill out the resume. I interacted with the guy that takes out the trash in my building and interesting to find that his family has a lot of trials and tribulations--worse than a lot of folks medically speaking. I did not tell him about my sitch, just listened to him.

I'm starting to wonder my wife's reasons for not wanting to come back at this point. A few are she wants to but can't live with the guilt and the fact that I could throw it in her face(which I wouldn't)or she doesn't want to and enjoys getting attention from multiple men and wants to play the field or she is delusional in thinking that OM will leave his wife for her. I don't know. It's just damn frustrating and I wish it could be over with either way.