I say that no matter what im going to be a better man either way. And the hope that im holding onto is that this is a cry for change, otherwise i would be very hopeless she has said that this is it, its over, there is nothing i can do about it now, its too late, and she doesnt care if i say i will change (have said it before during really bad times never did it from her perspective). Says doesnt even have the want to try at all and that im just giving myself false hope. (all this was said during my begging episode sunday). I beleive that she really feels like that right now due to our problems. She is a stubburn woman very full of pride (part of what i like about her) so when she puts her mind to something its hard to change it but im very hopefull. So this is where my fear and anxiety comes from, the fact that i have never heard her speak this seriously about this.
Thank you burt for all your advice i really appreciate it. I will keep listening and following it. I will stay positive and work on ME!
