I am really trying to live my life regardless of my W's actions, and I'm doing fairly well. I was actually doing better when her affair was going strong, as I really wanted nothing to do with her. Now she's returning to normal somewhat, and we're enjoying some time together, so that's got me somewhat caught up in the hope trap, which is a dangerous place to be. That's part of why I finally wanted to tell my story here. It was sort of obvious to me what to do before, but not so much now, and I was looking for a little advice.