Ammo, I see that you are a very young couple, both of you probably are envious of those around you during those tough times having a great time, while you two were stuck with grown up responsibilities.
This is going to be tough, but you are off to a great start by reading and FOLLOWING the books. It is time to do those things for yourself that will make you a better man. The playground is great! Get it done. I started to help around the house more, little things that she will notice.
When will she come back, or is she moving out? Do not ask her if you do not know. Do you work out? What other things can you do to make yourself better?
Remember this is for yourself, like you told her, whether or not you two are going to be together or not, this will make you a better person. If she notices and likes it, it is just a byproduct, a good one at that.
I actually thank my wife now, that we are together for putting me through what she put me through, because without her doing so, I would not be the man, husband and father I am today.
Hang in there, what are we going to do for 180's? and when is she coming back? And this may sound rough, but is it possible that she has met someone in these 4 months?
