Still here... (#61)

[AliSuddenly]

Hey K.. talking of which, did you read Terry Nazon today for this week?? Amazing, it really resonated with me and I thought of you. But as we said all along, we'll get there, when we are ready. And not before !

xxx

[smith18]

Hi Kalni -

I just watched a really good animated movie about the Greek Amazonian Princess Diana (daughter of Hippolyta) that might be inspirational for you. She is more beautiful than Aphrodite, wiser than Athena, stronger than Hercules, and swifter than Hermes. The trailer is here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2r92zs4TI1A

What I am hinting at is that only you can make yourself a wonderful and happy woman.

[Kalni]

Hi Kerry, Al, everyone,

Kerry I am trying to make myself happy. And right now happy is financially secure.

The last couple of days I am thinking ways to make money and decided I need to start the kid's painting again. This friend of mine that is in media business, VERY well connected and knows my sitch, called me yesterday from NYC where she is now, just to tell me she thinks I should pursue that. She said when she comes back she will help me set up a site and will speak of me on her prime time radio show and she will talk to all her friends at newspapers, TV, etc. Of course I am in no position to dive in as we say but I will start again my little "business" as I used to. If I do get serious about it I would have to be legal an dthat means start somekind of business because right now I dont get taxed on what I make, if I make any money.

I dont know why she thought of me while there but she sure got me excited again. Yesterday, I spend some time thinking of new designs, I am planning to incorporrate elements that will give a 3D feeling to the paintings such as buttons, fabric flowers, etc etc you know, kid's silly stuff.

I was looking into making jewellery again. I used to when I was young. I realise all my life I experimented with making things with my hands, being creative so, maybe, that is my true calling, who knows?

I've been surfing the intenet today to find ideas and materials etc. I need to be able to create more things than just the paintings so I can keep people coming back.

A friend of mine also told me he would be interested to work with me on a good idea if we have one, franchising, importing or exporting things... I am into that much, cause I've been there and all the dealing with the state sucks. Plus, I feel like being independent at the moment.

Anyway, H called only about the kids last night and we kept it very short. I am staying low and being careful.

I have been so tired I feel sleepy all day.
K

[john210]

K,

That is wonderful that you are thinking about painting again. Also great that you have a friend with a prime time radio show. That will sure help get you kickstarted. Do not underestimate the power of the web. Today, the world is your potential market. Start dreaming again and dream BIG!
You will surely have a couple of potential customers on DB....

[BobbiJo]

The painting sounds great! And jewelry, too... You are a very creative person so that sounds like a great fit for you. I hope you do move forward with your 'little business' and get some pleasure from it. The 3D elements sound great, too. I will have to order something for my kids!

Take care of yourself sis, sorry you are so tired...

[LG nm12]

Kalni,

WONDERFUL news! What a delightful coincidence that your friend called with this proposition. Makes me wonder if it is really just a coincidence, or if there is a greater force working in your favor.

Have fun exploring your new plans! Let us know if you need any advice on building your business.

Best,
Lucky

[fb2]

K, The kid's painting activity seems like a great idea! By site do you mean a physical place? It can even be done as a web site with no real materials, all virtual. My D spends hours on this site http://www.stardoll.com
Now imagine being able to paint online and put down buttons and flowers and things instead.

[AJM]

Hi Kalni. I've been catching up on your situation. While not at it nearly as long, I'm struggling with some similar questions and ideas.

I'm quickly moving away from her. Seems odd, but seems to help me out.

I admire what I've read of your efforts. I can see why you are having so many issues with this. I just wanted to pop by and wish you luck in your journey. I for one am inspired by your efforts and the growth I've seen through your posts.

AJ

[Kalni]

Thanks guys. fb2, I was talking about creating a site where people can see the paintings and order...
I am changing my "name". No more Dreamworks. Steven Spielberg will get mad at me soon for using his trademark. I am using Sunshine now.

I went ahead and bought some supplies this afternoon and I am even thinking of starting tonight. I've been tired but I think I may do it anyway. When I start, I cant stop.

AJ, I am here for over a year now. And H "returned" after a year of separation. If you have been reading my latest "episodes", I am embarassed to say, you see me at my lowest. I've been hurt and crushed thru this journey but I think I never felt so disappointed before in the man I married. And that feels very hard to deal with. My C would say I am projecting, it's me that I am disappointed in. This time I would agree with her, I think.

No calls from H today. Not even to the kids.I am fine.
I am even closer today.
K

[sandycay]

oooh K's gonna have two jobs now.. how's that for poetic justice!

I love the name....

K

You've been waiting for H to change for how long? You bomb was May07 before that was hell (as it was for most of us prebomb) Girl... I feel your Mojo changing. I sense it for you. Your finding your way with no regrets (which you would have had, had you not "tried" when he asked that of you) you did, he didn't, hasn't, doesn't seem to plan to.

Hey, if he has another "epiphany" and your available so be it, if not so be it. KWIM!