I have learnt a lot in the past five years about myself and about cheating people and this occasion I think I needed to show some emotion or anger,or at least get somthing out of my system. Having done that I'll get back to being good old me, but this time my actions won't be geared towards saving this M as I mentioned at the start of this particular thread, I'm feeling very weary in regards to this M. However I can see a long period of fractious co existing ahead, but then again haven't I been doing that for the past 5 years if not the whole duration of this M.
