It's been awhile

[kjensen]

Creed I so appreciate your words and thoughts. I know my H, just at the beginning of his MLC can see at times just a hint of what people may think of him based on his choice of having an A while married and leaving me without any chance to work on the marriage with him. I think someday he will come through this crisis and I really don't know if I'll still be waiting. I'm going to try my hardest. I worry that since my H has said he has no energy to put into our marriage, its too much work..that when he comes out of his MLC he'll not want to work at being forgiven, at rebuilding trust and at being honest.

I worry that it will be easier to dispose of me and start fresh elsewhere. With all that has happened in the last few months I'm not sure I know my H well enough to predict anything he will do.. guess thats a sign that the trust isn't there, there is no predictability or dependability.

Miss H. Sometimes we can't change our circumstances. But we always have power over how we see our circumstances and what we do with what we have. Something good will come of this. Sometimes its a positive change within us, sometimes its something external, sometimes its a new person entering our life that will enrich us, sometimes is a lesson our children can learn for their lives, but something good will indeed come your way. Your job is to pay attention and see what it is and run with it!
Hang in there!