I Never Imagined Being Here

[Making_IT]

Thank you for the advice Pearl and Burt.

I understand what you are saying and I don't want to push her further away.

We still have not had any contact since before last week when she sent a text. Of course I have thought of making contact every day, but I have talked myself out of it. The space seems to continue to help my mental state as well as I am not feeling as low as I was. The down side is that I constantly question if I am doing the right things, without any contact or feedback it is hard to tell.

As far as finding other things to do besides hunting and fishing, I am kind of struggling with this. My passion has always been in the outdoors. I am adding new activities with friends (i.e. art show, catching bands, etc...), but I still get the greatest satisfaction from being in the outdoors. Maybe I just haven't found the right niche yet, but I will keep looking. During the week, I am in the gym every night for 2 hours or more. It makes me feel really good about myself and is getting me in better shape than I have been since I was a teenager. It just doesn't leave much time during the weeknights for much else.