I know im indecisive..my god.. if i knew what i wanted..i wouldnt be in this predicatment.. this would all be easy..
Im afraid.
1. Afraid that this is some phase im going through and that i will regret anything i decide now.. 2. Im afraid that I really do want a divorce but want to work on it b/c I feel its the "right thing" to do.. 3. afraid that niether of us will ever be different.. even if we try .. i think it will be buried in the backs of our minds what we think that the other person thinks of us.. 4. I dont see him being able to change in the way I need from him.. which may be too much to ask.. 5. Im afraid he will try to change and It wont be enough for me.. 6. Im afraid this is all my problem..that i need to just "get right".. 7. Im afraid the problem is mine alone.
People think its just the LBS that has fears....The people going through this (MLC or whatever) are riddled w/ the fear that they are not doing the right thing.. or that they are being selfish....or at least I am.
I see my posts are a source of frustration..i try to work through my thoughts, but maybe wont post anymore until i have a coherent one.. sorry..
