PM Thread #5 - Hope new plan works

[PositivelyMommy]

thanks Kev, you know how it is. It comes and goes. I know my baseline happiness is pretty high, I just need to keep it that way and not let things get to me too much. With mindfulness, I hope I can achieve that.

The counsellors are great. One step at a time. I am trying to identify the areas in our M that needs work and my own issues that I need to work on while waiting so that when/if he reconsiders, I am ready and new and improved version of Liza. If he decides not to come back, it's still great to be the new and improved person for my kids, family and friends. But having counsellors help me see my issues more clearly is great because I felt that my H didn't understand how I felt and it got me very frustrated because we kept having similar arguments. Now that counsellors help me articulate my issues better and help me find solutions, I feel I have a team of people helping me understand everything. Yes , it was partly his fault, partly my fault. Yes, I can see how it could be changed for the better. Yes, I can do it very easily if I am mindful of what I am doing and not reacting or reacting when he pushes my buttons and vice versa.

I am hopeful that if I were given another chance, I can change things and interact in much healthier ways. I hope I am given the chance.