just had a chat with H on the phone; his first wife's partner has been diagnosed with prostate cancer. seems it is quite advanced. very upsetting considering i have known him for a while. i am struggling with our court hearing about the safety order on Thursday, there is something that tells me this is wrong........I am feeling for all of us. my H is traumatized by this and wants me to reconsider the hearing.he is resolute though about moving forward and resolving things but he wants to do it in a amicable way, preferably via mediation and not court, financially and otherwise. I feel that my heart is so unprotected where he is concerned, he reiterated that he is very 'cogent and clear about the narrative of his decision". the best hope of reconciliation is friendship and goodwill? Yet how do we get in that space, when he is in a relationship with OW. Am i being presented with a chance to show unconditional love or am I just being sucked into grievous hurt by a man that is indifferent. there seems to be no anger or hurt, just a will to be amicable. Indifference???? opposite to love.......... I am at a loss to know how to proceed. My friends are strongly advising me to go down a tough legal route for the protection of myself and my daughter. If love is dead can it be revived through prayer and patience and hope. And hard self reflection?
