Its been alittle while since I journaled/posted. I'm still living at my parent's house while going to back on Fri-Sun to spend the weekend with my son.
Last night, my W asked about out sitch/R and what we are going to do with the house, finances, etc. Although I didnt' want to get into it, she pushed and we did get into a little argument and some discussion. She did file the D, and I haven't gotten served cause she has the papers. She said she didnt' feel right having a sheriff serve me and so she was going to give them to me herself. I said I thought we agreed that she wouldn't be pushing for the divorce while I was moved out, so I didn't take the papers and left them there.
Today, I got an email saying how she is bothered that I said that I don't trust her. And she also mentions things that she like I did while we were dating and how she didnt' think I did that anymore after getting married. And about how after our son was born she didnt' feel that I made her feel attractive and a woman. She goes on to explain that she tried for the past 5yrs, and now knows that I might have been trying in my own way too. But feels that in that effort she built up so much resentment which destroyed any love for me. And that she thinks that her effort and mine was not enough to sustain the marriage and that we just need to find a way now to part ways peacefully and also to keep in mind whats best for our son.
How should I reply? Or should I even reply? I already told her before that if she wants us amicable, then I can't do this right now because I'm still catching up to where she is at. I think I mentioned in an earlier posting that I bet after a few weeks of my moving out/separation that she would just get impatient and tell me she doens't like living in this 'limbo' again. And yep...it's 3 weeks later.
