Lucky, I was "there", at my happy place last spring and then last summer more so. And he probably noticed and that's why he wanted back. But he wasnt ready for the work. Unlike what you said on your thread about your H, my H is immature and very caught up in himself right now. Bill is right. Very very selfish and what kills me, with NO compassion. I dont know why that hurts me so much. Probably because I still think he is better than that.
I dont want him to come "join me" if he sees something he likes. When we "mix" my mojo is lost. Ruined. Gone. He doesnt make me want to become better. He makes me feel undesired, unwanted, a bitch, unattractive, mean etc etc He is bad for me. Thanks K
