I don't know. I am so hurt at this point. I spent the first couple of months after the bomb beating myself up. But at this point it seems to me my marriage came down to this, I got sick. My wife got tired of being around a sick guy. She bailed and dredged up everything I ever did wrong to blame me. Then she found a new guy. I still love her. And I feel terrible for what this is doing to my kids, but I just don't know if I want to carry on dbing.
