he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

so instead of me writing about the ow (who deserves no attention), i will focus on my marriage.

this is not easy trying to work things out.

he is moody and up and down (which he always was). and i take it personally. i always think its about me.

as much as i read about this being normal, i have to say, i have no patience for it. its hurtful and im tired of hurting.

last night he slept on the couch in his office.

i hate that my feelings are still on hold, that everything seems to revolve around his moods and his behavior.

any advice? im tired of always being cheery, i feel like im allowed to get mad at his behavior.

lately i leave him alone when i see he is quiet, and i know he will turn it around to that i dont talk to him.

how do u talk to someone who isnt talking?

ughhhh, this is so very hard.