Why do you persist in damaging yourself in this R?
A) Because I think he's wonderful other than........B) Alot of my decisions are based on fear....C) There are good qualities about him that I really like....... D) when we first became a couple, it was WONDERFUL! He was more than I ever imagined, but something went horribly wrong. I still have yet to put my finger on it. It's weird and I guess I stay in this R because once upon a time we had something wonderful. Unfortunately, I was not a nice person to him. I didn't appreciate him, I was angry all the time. And for the life of me, I don't know why I behaved the way that I did. It took its toal on him and he bailed on me. He saw the very worst of me and I guess I don't want him to remember me like that. I'm not that kind of person yet for some unknown reason, I couldn't stand being in the R and so rather than me talking to him, I became mean. And that is not my character. I don't have a mean bone in my body, but I was to him. He didn't do a dang thing to deserve it so I've let him tell me off more than once because I thought I deserved it and if the truth be known, I probably did. But I've taken my licks long enough so I want it to stop so we can go back to the way it was. Does this make sense?
