Can't say I've had many sexy dreams about my W although I certainly wouldn't mind having some! Like you said, it's been a while. It's likely to be a while longer too unfortunately. I'm not sure that I'm feeling more friendly towards my W. I still love her with all my heart and I've always been very friendly when I talk to her but she seems to run hot and cold. Sometimes she seems very friendly and other times it's like she can't wait to be out of my presence. I've given up trying to understand why but it still gets to me when she acts cold towards me. The way I see it now is that she's becoming more comfortable interacting with me but also seems very settled and happy in her single life. I'm glad she is happy because I would never want her to be miserable but it means I have to work that bit harder to show that I'm still the best option.
I'm really at a loss to describe my emotions today. I still feel strong in myself but am getting to the stage where I feel as though my W is slipping further away from me again. I can't pinpoint exactly why I feel this. Once again I stupidly looked at my W's profile on Bebo last night. She's now removed her marital status from it. It could be worse I suppose. She could've changed it to single. Thankfully she never went that far though. It's just completely absent from her profile now. I've come to accept that though. She obviously doesn't want to advertise herself as married when she doesn't feel that she is any more. It's not my W at this moment in time that I should be concerned about. She's still in that fog and I shouldn't be expecting her to be able to see things from the same point of view as me. If she did, we'd be back together again already. Patience, patience, patience. That's what it's all about now.
Kev
Me: 32, Wife: 22 Son: 2 Married: 2 years Separated: January 5th 2009
Sometimes you have to become lost before you can find yourself.
