You beat yourself up a lot, and counseling and meds may help with that. It is NEVER too late to start maturing, growing, and implementing 180s... and there are plenty examples of 34 year old men living at their mom's house. Give yourself SOME credit, dude!
SUGGESTION: If what you've done in the past 8 months isn't working, do a 180. Forget the 'grand scheme' and long term goals for now. Start with one change or "micro goal" and focus on just the one until you accomplish that one. Keep the first one so small that you'll reach it in 24 hours, and do it. If you fail, start over on that ONE and do it.
