"First I would like to say sorry for shouting in my last post. It is just very frustrating because I do take everything that is told to me but and when I really need help and see 9 responses. Of course they are from the once that have always been with me and I do really really thank you."
The shouting is what attracted me.
Yes.. it is frustrating to not get the "answer" right away.
I have not read anything but this post.. but I knew you needed help.
I question the fact.. that you expected "help". I think we look for confirmation.
Yes.. I understand that you don't fully understand what I am saying.
Yet.
"If you are looking at this for the first time you will probably need to look at my other threads to get an idea of what is going on."
I am gonna go on what you posted here. To be honest.. the back story does not mean that much.
"Well let me tell you it was interesting."
With that statement.. you imply that what ever follows involved lots of "Emotion".
"So we had a new court date this last Fri."
Everything you said from...
"We were to have court on Monday morning @ 0930."
to
"So we had a new court date this last Fri."
Does not really apply.
Simply because the judge said so.
"Since that time my lawyer asked me to provide proof that if"....
This is your L preparing for what is coming.
It may change things.. it may not.
To be clear.. nothing has changed yet.
"I don't think he looks good at all. I noticed he is much more slumped over. His eyes were very blood shot and he looked WEATHERED. He wouldn't make eye contact with me AT ALL! When I got there I did look at him and smiled and said hi. He gave me a 1/2 smile and said hi. Once in court he kind of put his foot in his mouth several times."
All of that just makes me want to ask.. what do you want?
Spell it out for me.
I am slow.. and I ride a unicorn in my RL. So that just means you need to lay it on the line to me.
Here is the question again...
What do you want?
I am gonna throw you a cure ball here..
And...
Who do you want to be?
"Any advise on why and what to do about my heart breaking all over again would be great."
"He looks so bad."
"I could tell he isn't healthy and that really scares me. I'm a nurse and I know his health history and that makes it even worse."
Read all that again.
Final question...
Can he see the real "you".. in everything you just wrote?
I can.
But I will assure you..
"He" can't.
"You" just simply need to "shine".
And you are failing horribly right now... at "shining".
It happens to us all.. but I wonder if you are up to the task.. or if you are too far gone.
So again.. answer the questions.
What do you want?
Who do you want to be?
What are "you" all about?
Now...
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
