I haven't read all of your posts but I think you should really look at where you are now and how far you have come. That is the most important thing. You seem to be feeling pretty good and things seem to be turning in your relationship with ex. Keep on trucking lady and have fun in the process.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
