Dropping the rope

[peacetoday]

I have been dancing with this man for about 1 month
The attraction is very strong
this is the first attraction in the past 2plus years that I am having a hard time fighting
I am not sure/no I know this man is not what I really want
yet
the pull is so very strong
I am choosing to still dance with him eventhough I told him I am "Not dating" yet
he seems to be patient although he is reapecting my boundry to Not date

I do not want xH back..
As much as I desperately wanted XH back ,it is all gone now
I am trying to figure out what to do

My concern with a R such as this new one is:
I do not want to fall in love(or get addicted) to someone
and I feel it
I cant explain how crazy it is or what energy is flowing betweeen 2 people when they are strongly attracted
I dont know why I have created this now
I was doing well
evjoying being on my own
I do not want another R
But

It feels so good to be with him( this is what happens to our H)
I love dancing with him and him holding me
I tell myself to not GO dancing, but I find myself there
SO
I am writing this to remind all of us how strong the pull is
i FIND MYSELF UNDERSTANDING WHAT THE a MUST HAVE BEEN LIKE FOR MY xh
hE COULDNT FIGHT IT--I find compassion for him b/c I sense strongly he doesnt love OW
and he is in a painful R now with her 2 years later///just my sense
I am not in MLC
I am D..but sometimes I do feel like I am cheating too???
This man doesnt know I have been standing for my M this whole time
IM not sure what to do
and I know a lot of you would think go for it
You are D now
and I will aventually get a new R
But
I cant make up my mind with this one and Im so out of practice
thanks for listening
peace