Simon, I am far from the ideal loving wife at the moment. I am a hurt, hesitant, stressed, worried, tired, scared, disappointed woman. That is what Ali sees and knows. And he does too. But I AM doing half the work under the circumstances. I cant say I am happy and that I trust him or that I believe every word he says or that I like the way he prioritizes his life.
BUT I dont try to manipulate him or change him or MAKE him do things he doesnt feel like doing. Others may think I should. I dont. I think he should move closer to me because he wants to and is able to. I am all for free will. Otherwise I would be setting myself up for another bomb down the road. He doesnt choose me. I keep waiting and wishing getting frustrated. It isnt working.
I am more than sure he will regret it. And this is beyond what all LBSs say about their WAS. He is the type of man that will. Because he is not making a concious choice NOT to give his love to me (granted it exists). He is just choosing the easy way to handle me. IGNORE me. It's what he has learned to do. But I "unlearned" to be ignored. Thank God. As a result he gets frustrated because he feels me resisting and I get frustrated because I feel ignored. Fine. He had a lot of time. It is what it is. K
