It's all ablazin'....

[blindsided1]

I hear you. I hear you. It has really sucked the last few weeks. He's getting meaner and meaner. Last night he brought her home and he was decent. He said that she said "mama". We briefly talked about her...then, I noticed the car seat was still facing forward. I asked him why he won't turn it rear facing and she just kept saying "she's fine, she's fine, she's safe....stop being such a f'ing c*nt". I walked away and went into the house. I have begged and pleaded with him to just try to be civil. He refuses. He's a mean little man with a screwed up life that HE created. He says that I have hurt him by keeping K from him the last 10 months. I told him that I didn't ever keep her from him. He could see her whenever he wanted and he chose not to, nor did he check on her between visits or when she was ill. I reminded him that I tried to get him to spend more time with her and be more involved with her life. But, he didn't do so. So, basically, I said "maybe you need to stop projecting your anger on me and focus your anger where it belongs"...he's the only one who keeps himself from K.

I wish he would grow up. I wish he could be nice and do right for K's sake. But, it is a never ending battle with him. It's only going to get worse. I have to call Child Support Services for the CS and I am writtin up the custody and debt judgements. He's gonna be one unhappy camper and it will be all "my" fault that he created this mess.