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Stay strong, stay strong...I really am trying. I don't think I've done all that bad today.

No contact still, little disappointed? yes but not letting it own me, I just thought it and then decided to move on with my day. I got up did things around the house, no not super busy but much more than in nearly a week, so felt good.

I spent a few hrs with a friend today, it was nice out so we spent some time outside and even went and got an ice cream

I got some advice on computer stuff, it is working ok now so here's hoping! I am going to make sure I learn more about how to work things/fix things on the computer. goal?

I am feeling a little foggy myself tonight so am reviewing what I am doing or what I should possibly be doing.

I know what to do RE GAL...I am working on it and slowly adding to this area. I find it hard doing new things with people I don't know but I've found asking myself 'what's the worst that could happen?' helps...the worst thing that could happen is 1. I have a bad time or 2. I make a fool of myself. Neither of which would be that bad in reality. So I am just going to get myself out there more and more.

I suppose I am 'dark' now. I haven't talked to H for over 3 weeks, but had a few very short emails with the last one about 9 days ago. I hope I am doing the right thing with this. That little voice in the back of my mind keeps asking if I am? but I think it is just me worrying and wishing it wasn't like this.

I guess when H does finally contact I will just be upbeat, cheerful and positive.

I will try and get lost in work during the week to keep busy and pick up getting back to the gym regularly. I will just keep on getting on with things.