Thank you my friends. It's hard for me to go slow, so to speak, not to call him and say I am done etc etc, when my emotions are strong. So, I am trying to be careful and make sure, that this is what I can support, not making any jerk moves due to what happened yesterday. Because I know what I want, I am trying to make sure he wont have any effect on me if he tries. If for example HE pulls the kids'card (hasnt so far).
Jeff, he is a man that cant handle 2 "things". We are one, his work is the other one. He has made his choice. He is a "good" guy, that is unable to deal with life. He just cant. Until he was 30, his parents took care of him. Then I did. Maybe the next family he creates will be luckier. ( ). I swear, he would be your favorite friend if you met him. Low profile, kind, polite, smart, generous. He just isnt good for me and really bad as a H. Thank God he seems to remain a "good" father.
Bill, I hear you. Yes I was in a much better place before he looked back. Happier, stronger, even looked better... (vanity you call it?)
My exH (from Tx) sent me an email and attached a story he wrote for his writer's class. He wrote a short story about meeting me in 1987. Very touching. He describes me as..."a real live Greek Godess",LOL, anyway, at the email he said, "This is what everybody still sees I am sure when they meet you. Or at least that is what they should see, because your beauty was always coming from within, find it again and be YOU again".
I received it yesterday(my time) when I got back. I needed it. Because xH KNOWS me very well. And he is not trying to be cute or wants something from me. We probably wont see each other for the next 5 years or so... And he doesnt think I am mean. And I was much meaner to him if I may say so.
I think I maybe making a mistake with my life. I see "limits" everywhere, obstacles, worries. I dont see opportunities, room to expand, adventures to be lived... I think that is my mom speaking in my head. "Your life is finished once you have your kids, you should dedicate yourself to them, period, or NOT have any"... Got to change that.
This week I am going back to work and my kids to school. On Friday we celebrate 1st of May, off day. My brother suggested we go away for the long weekend. I said I am in. H works on Saturday and definitely cant come. What a shame!!! Thank you K
). I swear, he would be your favorite friend if you met him. Low profile, kind, polite, smart, generous. He just isnt good for me and really bad as a H. Thank God he seems to remain a "good" father.
