H traveled W-Friday noon. Texted me about every hour and called every night. Felt very much like our regular "old" life. He was frustrated and angry before he left--about traveling, travel plans, and work.
Came home from airport Friday and had lunch at home. He was loving and apologized for being angry before he left. Said he had to get back to work (local). However, he either went back to work for a short time or not at all and spent the afternoon with OW. I found this out only this morning. She was happy about the visit (when you date an OW in her 20's, she documents her life electronically on a thinks it's private but it's not site-www.D-U-M-B.com)
That night he was exhausted ("traveling"-normal for him) and was loving and needy. He wanted to be touched and rubbed and fell asleep on my lap.
The next day he was loving and attentive and even volunteered ILY. Maybe even a little demanding for my attention.
I discovered the escalation to in-person visiting again this AM but received his loving good-byes as he left again on business for a few days. So I felt like an improvement for me that I didn't demand clarity from him immediately.
I am still so confused how to work with this in MC. I start tearing up as I walk into the office--I absolutely cannot help it. He really needs IC--My IC thinks he wants me with him as he works on his own problems in MC. Doesn't that put me in the ongoing parent role?
My current thoughts are that he has "chosen me" but feels compelled to keep experimenting.
There isn't much to read about the MLC'er that remains in the home, now putting in more effort/emotion than they have for a long time, and continues with the A. The thought of the A escalating again (JTB asked me if I could stand a PA)while I sit by makes me sick to my stomach.
Thanks for reading. I have read just about every word on this website.
