Well, here is a progress report. My wife and I continued to spend more time together, whether it be doing errands or going to the park as a family, etc. Whenever we are in public, she introduces me as her husband and that simply feels so good. This past weekend we were at her place and it was the first time since the big D I was holding her in my arms while we were watching TV. Also, I've been spending more time with her family and she told her best friend that she is moving out in about 1.5 years to get back with me.
That said, I am concern that she might have some unrealistic expectations regarding our finances. Although I make what I would consider to be okay money, the truth is that we cannot afford to have a house/loft like the one she is currently living in, even with my new job. She wants to live in a particular neighborhood that has a good school district and/or send our daughter to private school. I understand the need to have our daughter go to a good school, but at the same time I have to be honest with what I can and cannot afford. I told her my concerns and that we have to live within our means. Her best friend is a police officer with no college degree so she is having a hard time understanding why a person from Harvard cannot afford what her best friend can.
She's made the comment several times that I want to put the family in some run-down house and that really hurts to hear that as nothing can be further from the truth. I sometimes wonder if that will be a deal breaker for her. Maybe I am thinking to much into this, but this does worry me a bit. The other day she told me that I didn't care as much for our daughter as I should since I wasn't committed to sending her to a good school/school district. I am currently living really tight so I can pay off debt, save money for a down payment, etc - I sometimes wonder if she realizes all I am trying to do for the family.
I am so in love with my wife and so much want us to be a family again. I am glad that we are moving in the right direction and that us getting re-married is becoming more of a reality. That said, I am not at a point where I feel that can really express my feelings for her just yet. I am a very affectionate person and am the type that loves to hear and say I love you on a daily basis. Right now I don't think my wife is ready to hear that. I think she needs time to fully digest that we are truly getting back together and perhaps build some more trust.
