I'm now part of a Jerry Springer show!

[PortlandDad]

It IS sick and depraved and it is obviously very painful, too. Even thinking about all of this is causing you a lot of distress right now. Do what you can to detach and separate yourself, physically, mentally, and emotionally from this man and your ex-friend. That much evil and sickness will affect your mind and your thinking the longer that it stays in your head. Please try to detach and think about your kids right now. It may be hard, but draw whatever strength you can from your relationship with them and don't obsess or stress over the absolute mess that your H has made for himself.

Get that L and get cracking on making sure that you and your kids are taken care of. That is priority one right now. You are a strong woman with a strong resolve. Don't waver of be swayed now. God bless you in your adversity!