Her moodswings drive me nuts. In the morning and during the day she is so much nicer, but man when its time to go out to the bar or a party im the scum of the earth.

Im so fed up with her jeckyl and hyde crap.

When we were out looking at cars we talked a lot, joking around and then a little M talk. She told me she loved me, she wanted us to have the same connection that we used to have but she just didnt feel that anymore, she says she wants to.

Then she flips things around later and says i just dont think its going to work out, so what do i do? Of course i start manipulating, I mean well but its so hard to stop yourself sometimes.

She told me that in the time we have been seperated that she was with another guy and that she talked to several on a regular basis. Let me back up, I told her i wasnt interested in what happened in the past, but i think she wanted to clear her conscience.

I completely fell apart when she told me about the other guy, but ive pulled it together pretty fast, she started being very disrespectful to me after she shared that with me, i took it until this afternoon. I demanded an apology and told her if she wanted anything at all to do with me she had better change the way she talks to me.

I didnt get the apology yet, but she has simmered down a lot.

Im scrambling to make sense of this new person, im not sure that i like her too much right now lol. She is a selfish, greedy, cold hearted, manipulative B-word at the moment.

Then again tomorrow she will be something entirely different. I really feel used by her right now, i spent a lot more time then i had planned helping her get this new car, and now she is gone like the wind in her convertable lol. Man im a sucker sometimes,
on the bright side if this goes well, i have a nice car to tool around in lol.

This post was just my random babbling, i had a lot of stuff on my mind. By the way portland, i finally finished reading your original post. You are tough as nails for hanging in there. I know the havoc that online games can reap in your life, I used that as my social outlet for a long time too.

Take care folks, keep your heads up and your hearts light.

MLB

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.