I think the one thing I didn't take into account is I think you mentioned she filed first with an attack. I would say in that case your back is up against a wall at that point. But fighting and a war is so hard. I also pointed out your wrong in the marriage because I am sure it broke her heart and hurt her badly. She loved you and I am sure trusted you and you did something to break that trust and also damaged her self esteem. My soon to be X is making me out like I am wild and going crazy in his vendetta. But truth be with kid's, school, and work. I don't have time to be wild. Am I changing yes I am. I am happy and so much more relaxed. I am rebuilding my self esteem and living life again. I started bowling, and going hiking and actually hanging out with friend's when I have free time. Sometimes it's for dinner, sometime's boating and a picnic, or a concert. Or sometimes it's to a club to listen to a band. I have never been a big drinker my whole life. Maybe two glasses of wine a year. Also am very anti drug and anti partying. My ex though is making me out to be some irresponsible person who goes out partying. When for years he told me how boring I was because he was a drinker.
