he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

thanks for your support....but honestly, she cannot insist to talk to me, i just wont allow it. nothing good can come out of it for me, therefore, i will continue to refuse to talk to her.

i have spoken and heard from her more than i would like. if anyone else has had the pleasure(lol) of speaking with the mistress, they will understand.

it just makes it all too real, if that makes sense. i do not want to hear her voice ever again, i do not want to see a text or message from her ever again.

and speaking to her, while it may clarify for her that he is home with me, she may tell me something that i didnt know that may only upset me.

i have learned that i would rather have some unknowns about them.