HELP! Is ML to try to reconnect a mistake?

[trampledheart]

I'm feeling a little blue right now...

My D21 left with her friends today to spend the weekend at the Stagecoach concert (it's a Country Music Concert and it's a whole weekend event).

I feel like time had stood still for me these past 2 yrs and H's light years away...

I know that if it's MLC that it will take time, and even then, there are no guarantees he'd come back... That makes me feel so hopeless. Especially with all the changes and activities and experiences he's had - while I stood still waiting.

I left everything the same...all his things that he left are still right where he's left them... Our portrait that I painted years ago still hangs on the wall. Framed family photos are all still the same. Only the bed feels like its just my bed now...

H's got a better life now, so why would he want to come back? He's been doing things he's never done all the years I've known him. The OW taught him to sail on her boat, she's taught him to scuba-dive, she's gotten him to camp, hike, and mountain climb, they've sky-dived, traveled everywhere, Canada, Cabo, Germany, and now they're in Rome...

We've never done any of those things... They've had more fun and adventure than we've had in all the years together.

He hadn't told me any of this, I got bits and pieces from our D21 and on their social websites... they have photos sky-diving, scuba-diving in Cabo, camping in the Sequoias, hiking in Joshua Tree and Utah...

All I've done is visit friends in Seattle a couple of times...

Bleh......