Kimmie, Grace and Irmac First Thank you once again for posting to me. let me explain WHY I wanted to know about if it was MLC or not. I was trying to figure out if I wanted to stand for my marriage (even though I am divorced), or not. If he truly has an illness, I dont want to take that lighty. Yes I have asked that question before and yes I am still spinning I guess but I truly would like to know. With that said, I have decided if I want to know and need to know, instead of asking here I am turning it over to GOD and he will lead me. I also know GOD is against divorce, so whatever GOD wants me to do, I will let him lead me. Now I dont know anyones religion here but Irmacs and she made it clear. BUT I have been trying to give this completely to GOD and I have thought I did a bunch of times but I have NOT. I am turning it over to him COMPLETELY. From this day forward he is in GOD's hands to do whatever GOD pleases to do with him. I have to say that I dont cry every night and wake up said every morning anymore. I do still think about my xh everyday and I do pray for him every day and I do still love him. I dont see anytime in the near future any one of these things changing. I dont know if I want them to. I WANT to pray for him everyday, I WANT to love him every day, I WANT to think about him often, for he is my sons father and was a very good father and husband at one time. I have come a long way and have felt like giving up sooooo many times but here I am. I have soooo much more to be thankful for vs. pain I have encountered.
Irmac, we started a revival at church last night and I got soooo blessed. The service was so good. Two people were saved! I prayed for my family and I prayed for my heart to be healed and I claim that healing. Tonight I am praying for the depression to be lifted. Thank you for your kind word Irmac.
