Separated but keeping the Faith

[jaguilar]

The week is going pretty good. I had a field trip with D10 yesterday. We had a blast. Next week I ahve a feidl trip with D8 and then the following week, a minor league basbell field trip with D10.

I got served on 04/14. I have a court date on 04/27. I have no $ for an attorney. My C hooked me up with her friend for now. But I have to go to court, by myself, and tell the judge I would like a continuance. So I get to play lawyer, this should be fun.

Also a little upset with the W. She has been talking up the D with the kids. Getting really upset to the point where they are starting to doubt praying. I told them to always believe but don't get upset if your prayers are not answered. This can only make us stronger. Then W goes and tells them that she still loves daddy but we're going to be a different family and that we're still going to get a divorce. Now she wants to spend time with us on the weekends. I told her that she can't, we need these boundaries and rules. I could understand if she wanted to hang out with us and we were actually trying to make the M work. but she doesn't want to go to counseling because she says she can't. I still don't know what "can't" means. To me that is not an answer. We had a 2 hour talk earliuer this week and it was great. I listened and valdiated. She also told me that somebody is telling her that I cheated on her from day 1 of us being married. I told her that is not true and I didn't know why she was listening to other people. She said I was trying to put words in her mouth, then I said ok ask me whatever you want. She asked the same questions three different ways and then she said, "you're right I don't beleieve you."

Man, I don't know what the hell is going on with her. I can see now that she is hurting and doesn't know what to think. But stop telling the kids about the D. She is also telling me that she is the bad guy in all this, I told her that she shouldn't feel that way but then again, this was her choice to leave and file for D.

I do have some otions for her to give her time but I don't want to say anything until after I see a L.

And my Spurs choked last night!!!!