Ahhhhh.... Jokerman. I remember you and your posts. I am so sorry about what happened. I had wondered about you. Yes, this board can be addictive but it's a great support when you are going through rough times, and it sounds like it may be good place for you right now. Eventually things will get easier and you won't feel the desire to be here so much. But for now, stick around for a little while. And NO, no one hates you. I never felt that way towards you. I know you wanted so badly for your marriage to get through the A, and your family to stay together.
{{{{hugs}}}}}
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
