It's all ablazin'....

[blindsided1]

I could use some advice on how to deal with H these days. He is totally uninterested in having any kind of R with me, even as a coparent. I have to see him on Saturday's when he drops off our daughter. Should I be nice or act like he doesn't exist. Today for some reason it is hurting that he basically acts like I don't exist. I did NOTHING to him. And, yet he is the one acting like I caused all of this. I hate him for treating me like this. I wish he would just disappear sometimes, so I don't have to ever see him again. He has his new life and I'm just trying to make the most of mine. But, there are days when it still hurts very much. I want to be able to be nice to each other and have a decent R for K's sake. But, he doesn't want that. It makes me mad. I really hate him for this. I'm tired of hurting because of him. I don't deserve to be NOTHING. I know, I know, pity party. It just hurts today.