Well, it's been nine days since my last post. I really don't know where I stand on the DB front these days. I've been dark for days and days. I've been GALing fairly well also. On Wednesday I had a great day with my boys until W decided to call.

I'm going to back up here a little bit. I've noticed something happening with me. When I am away from my boys, I tend to be more anxious, stress, worried depressed etc. When I am with my boys, I am much more calm. I feel like I have some family. I am not alone.

So Tuesday, my W drops off the boys. She was 15 minutes late, which is really weird for her. When she gets there she is crying and so is my oldest son. She had gotten a speeding ticket on the way over which upset her. She apparently had mentioned something to my son about the money it would cost. He knows things aren't good in the money department because we told him we couldn't afford piano lessons. So the ticket and W mentioning the money got him upset as well.

I just tried to be upbeat and help as much as I could. I could tell all she wanted to do was run away from me, so I let her go. And, I'll be honest, I was kind-of fine with it. If she doesn't want any comfort from me, then fine; go on.

I went on to have a great couple of days with the boys. They were happy; I was happy. Then, at the end of the day Wed., she calls. She is thinking that two days a week for me is too much disruption for the boys schedule. She also thinks that the way we have the Sudays set up is also disruptive to their schedules. What she wants does nothing but reduce my time with the boys.

I stuck to my guns. I'm not going to let her reduce my time with my boys. I have agreed not to seek full custody, mostly as a DB move. But, I'm not going to take any less time than I am taking.

I don't know if this is a problem or not, but I am so tired of all this. I am exhausted from all this!!! It doesn't seem like I'm looking for the light that is my wife coming back to me. I'm looking for the light [at the end of the tunnel] that is this all being over. Don't get me wrong. I would give anything for her to come back to me, but I just can't take it much more. Right now it would just be a relief if it were all over and the D was final.


Me: 39
Wife: 41
Boys: 8 & 5
WAW: 02/11/2009
She Filed For D: 03/26/2009 - Yeah it was that quick!