Slowly but surely - detach and 180

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I am trying to start over. I have failed miserably and gotten way off track and not focused on the end goal. I have been way to focused on my fears and not being optomistic at all.

So I thought about this a lot since Wedneday when I posted and I am going to focus on my attitude. I posted this quote up everywhere and read it 10+ times a day to keep myself in a PMA.

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me is more important than facts.... We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes."

I am focusing on being someone she wants to be around and be happy and upbeat. I am been sullen and standoffish since our counceling and taht is definitely the absolutely wrong thing to do. I think I also made a mistake pushing the fact that I don't want to see her or talk/txt her and minimized our contact and pissed her off. I'm not sure how to reverse this without looking either pursuing or like I am changing my mind AGAIN. So I will just go with how things are and make every contact positive. Over time I hope we can just go back to normal contact without having to really discuss it.