NO..i have not..i have been tempted.. but realize that is not where the answer lies....
It is a quick "feel good" remedy.. and I know this is bigger than that..
We just had a very honest discussion..about the fact that neither of us really knows what we want or what to do...and that any effort on either part feels "contrived" or fake.. I think we are both in the same boat.. totally clueless.. ALl i was saying above.. is that the more I am taking control of my personal happiness... the less I see him in the picture.. which is not a good sign:( I know its still very early..but something in me feels this is moving on w/o us.. We cant even come to a realization together that we want to work on it ....
