I live more on the Rt. 8, Merrit Parkway, I-95 intersection. Come on down!
Ms Donna..
I'm going to stay in this town, hopefully find an affordable home in a nice neighborhood. My daughter has very good friendships, high involvement in the community theatre and is very happy here. It's home for me and the kids. I'll worry about the rest in a few years.
Code..
My dad did very bad things to me through out my childhood. My ex was the first man I ever really trusted. It's leftover fear of the past, of being betrayed, not being able to trust.. kind of like a bunny looking at you, then dashing away cuz she knows you're thinking rabbit stew, whether it's true or not.
And I still repeat the same patterns.. putting another's time and worth before my own, willing to go with their needs over voicing my own, that self sacrifice unwitting martyr thing. I'm fine as friends, but if it gets farther I flounder and fall apart in ways that aren't pretty.
Each action I'm doing now helps me grow, makes me more confident, independent. I need to know I can take care of myself rather then cling to a man for all my needs.
In short.. I don't really know why.. I'm just absolutely terrified. So, I'll work on me and see how the rest goes.
