As I read your post I identified so much. AND I felt like I was reading a standers version of many verses in the Bible.
Funny really - the fundamentals even are in the Word. In Proverbs it talks about the heart, how it is desperately wicked, about that sin has a cost. Have you ever read the chapter that WARNS us to watch out for the "other woman/man" that will flower us with words, affirmation -- not caring about the reprocussions, the fallout?
The runnign - the FLIGHT does seem so easy. Man, watching my x it LOOKS easy. Singleness LOOKS so simple... you have knowoen to worry about except yourself. And for a time that IS what they want. Sad really - because as you stated.... at some time you will have to pay the piper.
Last thought- your x - vacation - Hmm makes sense doesn't it really? If la la land is shakey he CANT fail again ... so he has to go RUN off and pretend rather than face himself.. It isn't really strange. They do do the same thign again and again...
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again