I have a day at home today which is great......time to think... My h was here last night; I had to wrk but he was in the house with D7. It was strange; he seemed so uncomfortable, not easy and relaxed. i was also minding our neighbours two kids; 8 and 10 and he ignored them which was very difficult for them, they know him well. I have just bought D a guinea pig and a rabbit, he made a comment taht it was a lovely thing for me to do; I think it was a pointed remark taht i have never done anything like taht before. I didnt say anything. all my change will be noticed via action, not words. He is wanting to come back on Saturday to do the gardening.
This is hard.......on one hand I could think that this means something but I think not.......at the end of the day he is leaving at night and sleeping in the same bed as OW. Thats the reality.
I am finding it hard to acknowledge the shift and am holding strong. For my own dignity and my D
