hi guys sorry its been a few days but things have changed here dramaticly, i also only realised my thread had locked yesterday, lol. for you people that know my story ts been one hell of a ride, so the situation now is my wife is back home and where a family again, we are taking things slowly and everything is good, we have done nothing but talk for 5 days solid, we have everything out in the open, ive acknowledged all my doings and she has too, my wife as shown deep regret for the things she said and done, we are putting it all behind us, and making a new future together with the changes we have both agreed, we both lost sight of the person we was and took each other for granted, my wife has also stressed that she deeply loves me and she had to say she didnt when we split to make me see what i could lose, she has said it almost sent her insane leaving me but she felt it was the only thing left to do, to be honest guys i now feel like she did the right thing beacuse this has saved our marriage from failing in the future, at the time i thought my whole life was gone and i couldnt see a future for me, people would say she is standing her ground on something and i couldnt work it out, i now know what it was. she wanted me to realise what we had and what we could lose if things dont change, so guys its baby steps from here and were building a foundation again, i must admit i get a little aprehensive now and then, but thats normal. so thanks guys for all your advice and support, speak soon.