Had a mishap yesterday with the H. Had an R talk that blew up in my face and I was totally upset about it. I emailed him an apology and said I didn't want a divorce right now that I wanted to be friends with him. Didn't hear anything back from him. Flash forward to today.
Driving home from getting my youngest from school we pass by the gym. My oldest daughter says, "Mom, is that S (my best friend)?" I turn and look and see some blonde girl going into the gym with my H. I immediately whip a U turn and go to the gym. I bang on the door and he comes to the door. He looks scared and won't let me in. Needless to say it got very ugly. I told him so many things and called him and her (I never get to see her but I know she is listening) awful names that apply. I end up leaving. They have been "talking" according to him. They have been hiding her car so I wouldn't know she and he are together. She has a very distinct car that you can't miss.
Have to take daughter to high school registration. On the way back her car is now at the gym. I go flying up there. I want to talk to the both of them. I go into the gym and he isn't in there. I tell the owner of the gym that the girl who is up there with my H is supposed to be my best friend. He gets sort of red in the face. I can tell he is upset that I have come in there with my business. I do feel bad about bringing him into it, but I could not let those people in there think she is some angel and so nice.
Walk outside and my H is holding hands with the OW (aka who I thought was my bestfriend) in her car. I go over there ranting and screaming for him to get out of the car and for her to. They are both scared and stay in the car. I talk to them through the window. This man is unbelievable. I can't believe I ever DB's for this man. He is not worth the air I breathe. I told him I wanted him to file a contested divorce based on adultery and he was like but we haven't slept together. I told him that it didn't matter that I had proof that they had been having an emotional affair for quite some time. He looked upset. I will be going tomorrow to the courthouse to see what I need to do to divorce this man. I will not spend another minute of my time caring for a man who could do this to me. I wish everyone here the best in their situations. I wish for peace in all of your hearts and minds.
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
