Well I moved a bunch of the stuff that we agreed was going. It was harder than I thought to move it into the garage. I'm really hurting and I'm beating myself up internally (as well as listening to old love songs). I know I need to stop so I can be strong. I'm going do what my therapist said was just allow myself to cry/grieve for 30 minutes to let it out.

Its a rough nite. I'm not sure if I'm missing her or the reality of the possible finality of my marriage is hitting me

Me 41
WAW 36
S 3&7
M 10 yrs
W files D 1/9/09
W moves out 4/18
Lost job 6/15
New job 7/27
Disc PA 8/10 (started Nov 2008!)
Confronted 8/11
Admits PA & appologies for hurt 9/11
Lost Job 11/13