I honestly can say this is the most horrible thing I've gone through. I feel such a loss, emptiness and I don't even want to think about ever being with anyone else in the future. After everything that should be foolish of me but I can't help it. I feel like I've lost the love of my life and I don't even know why.
I know how you feel Jenn. The hardest part for me is the sense of loss. We are lucky to be young and still have a lot of life yet.... but the sense of loss just tears up my heart. I also do not understand why and it makes it so difficult for me. My H lied several weeks ago about having an A - I was so upset but part of me was a little relieved b/c I thought I finally might have closure. But then he came clean that it was a lie to push me further away and get me to sign D papers! So now I am probably more confused & hurt than before. It's very difficult w/o having a good explanation.
One thing is for sure - we are both strong, amazing women and will be stronger with this experience regardless the outcome. Keep praying and seeking God. You will be rewarded for your efforts.
Hope you enjoy your weekend away!
Me:28, first M H: 33, second M Married: 08/08 Bomb: 10/08 H filed D and deployed: 12/08 Served: 04/09 I deploy: 07/09 Hearing date: 08/09
