Holding onto Hope

[In Limbo]

It's been 2 days with no tears (yea!) and no R talk with H or tears in front of him since Monday. Tonight I took the boys out to play arcade games and have dinner. We had a great time. Tomorrow night I'll take them to the park, provided the weather cooperates. If not, we may stay home and watch a movie or play games. Weight loss is going well and I'm brainstorming lots of GAL options. Right now my focus is on getting back in the groove of being there for the boys.

I have a question from experienced DBers regarding MC. We have a session tomorrow and I am not sure I really want to bring up any R items. H seems more distant and I'm noticing even more oddities with $ leaving our joint account, credit card charges, etc. I think he's spending $ on OW and/or squirreling it away in a new bank account. I'm thinking it's time for him to completely move out and our separation to become legal in order to protect my financial and emotional interests. So, I'm wondering if that is what we should discuss in MC tomorrow rather than the R since he doesn't want to work on R anyway. There's a part of me that's terrified to even bring up the $ because I know it will just bring lies, anger and manipulation. But I can't be a doormat and maybe in MC would be the safest place to bring it up? It would certainly be a 180 for me to ask for a formal separation of finances and living quarters.

It is just so hard to have so much deception from a H that has previously been so direct and open. He's not the man I married, he's a MLCer that is very different. I just wonder if they ever return to "normal" again or if it's a lost cause. Would someone please pray for us tomorrow that during MC whatever we end up discussing is something that helps move us in a positive direction? I'd appreciate it.