You're not doing anything!! You're talking about planning, but you never actually PLAN!!
Kevin, stop trying and start DOING! Here you are again, going on and on about your wife this and your wife that - that's what you focus on and IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER.
I go to work every day and teach with three year olds with brain tumors, fetal alcohol syndrome, autism, Down's syndrome, and the list goes on. These children will never have a "normal" life, have truly done nothing to deserve their plight, but I see more love for life, and determination from SPECIAL NEEDS THREE YEAR OLDS, than I see from a grown up, fully functioning, healthy, employed grown up man.
As far as your "dating" talk, anyone who would go out with you at this point would have to be a bigger train wreck than you are, and you don't need that. Unstable people don't attract healthy, happy, stable people - they attract other unstable people.
Wake up -- you're never going to get anywhere -- you think because you're moving, you're getting somewhere, but you're not because you're going in pointless circles all the time.
You're exhausting, and I don't know how your wife hung in with you as long as she did. You should be grateful for that.
