JTB-

I feel like I am getting goaded in C to "fix" the M and rescue H from himself. I have ongoing confusion on how to reconcile DB with MC. So the frustration with the dynamic described above caused me to want to clear the air with the obvious "We are married and love each other and H has a girlfriend."

I hate, hate, hate that we are acting "as if" we are reconciling in MC and then H verbally holds on to his "position" and his A.

I know that this is true to the MLC'er experimenting and to DB to believe 1/2 of what they do and none (not much) of what they say. It feels like I'm sticking my head in the sand.

Too much of the time I'm starting to feel like I want to be right instead of being married.